Week One: Getting with the Program and Overcoming Resistance
Last year, one of her clients lost 50 lbs using Caitlin’s methods and this year it’s going to be me.
|2011 Success Story, Marie|
After meeting on Thursday night, I received my first email from Caitlin Friday morning, reminding me to start journaling my food and to eat protein for breakfast. Great! First advantage of working with a real person: email reminders from a live person who I’m accountable to!
When I sat down to journal my food, this huge wave of anxiety came over me. I had not shopped for “the right foods” and we had a busy family weekend ahead that included a date night with my husband, and burgers, fries, and ice cream we promised my 4-year old. This was not how I wanted to start off. I had visions of perfection in my head that I was not living up to. I did journal over the weekend as I had promised, but it caused me a great deal of anxiety. I felt like I was documenting failure. Caitlin will see how badly I eat sometimes; maybe she will think I’m not committed or that I’m a lost cause. By Sunday I realized that I wasn’t afraid to show Caitlin my food journal, I was afraid of seeing it myself. I couldn’t face the truth that I eat things I know are bad for me and my family and I make choices that don’t serve me well or move me towards my goals, even if I have a trainer and nutritionist.
I remembered a quote I recently read by Martha Beck:
Losing weight and keeping it off has been one thing I have never been able to do. I was on my first diet as a toddler and to this point in my life, I’ve never been what society or weight charts consider a “normal” weight.
Since I’m the only person I can truly count on to show up for me, I’ve decided I won’t retreat at the first sign of struggle or hide in the comfort of fear of failure. I’m going to show up and do my best everyday, and know that sometimes I will fall short, but at least I’m trying.
My food journal is up to date and Caitlin has already emailed me some food recommendations to help me feel full and energized. That is one of the many benefits of journaling: personalized advice from Caitlin!